me me me... :-D

me... who am i???? what i want? no idea!! too many thoughts running thru my head right now.. but let me try to pen them down... i am a city walker.. but walking around the city doesnt seem interesting at all.. given that singapore is a small country.. hmm maybe i should rename myself as global walker :D yes indeed... city is really too small... i need... a more global culture... a more global space.. globalization is good.. hmmz.. hey, before i forget... i'm english. =)) anyway.. my brain is kinda dead right now. its tough trying to express ur deepest thoughts when its soooo late in the night, almost past my bedtime. and of cos the glasses of whites, red and my fav port induces sleep. the most immediate concern right down is to.. sighh.. i dont know how to express my deepest thoughts, really. drinking makes me feel so high, until i dont know what i want to do... hmm.. do you think im drunk? i dont know... maybe getting drunk makes me feel liberated... haha... thats why i'm penning down my innermost thoughts.. =D well well.. given that i'm a gentleman... or at least i TRY to be... you know, it's really hard to be a gentleman.. i know i really am not... but in order to give others that impression... well... hmmz... i try not to express my innermost thoughts to everyone.. but since i'm more or less drunk now.. it doesnt seem that important to uphold the "gentleman" image of mine.. do i make sense? pls tell me i do.. or i'll be very upset... there's always the wish to b what i think people want or expect me to be.. but this often conflicts with the real me. am i to continue upholding my gentleman image?? or? should i just be myself and shock the world? its so difficult hiding my true intentions? a lot of times, i do reminisce the times when i was in london.. those wild times i had when i was alone... with.. ahem... maybe i shouldnt say more... well, you know.. alone with... hahhaz... those moments... ermz.. maybe i should really really not say anymore.. hmmz.. yupe.. pardon me but you know i'm juz trying to be myself.. and some things should be left unsaid.. yes.. especially those moments. ok.. i think i need to go off right now.. there's a brunette and a blonde.. ermz.. well.. ermz.. hmm.. well you know.. waiting for me right now.. need to go. tataz :P